Showing posts with label self. Show all posts
Showing posts with label self. Show all posts

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Summer!

Whoop!!! It's summer! We just got back from camping for a few days. Maya came with us. We took the boat out onto the lake (Lake Billy Chinook) and found a nice big cliff to jump off of. Jake and I never had before and it was seriously scary. But YOLO. I kept straight but I was tilted slightly backward when I hit the water, so I have a nice big bruise from my upper right thigh to my butt. The worst part was that my swimsuit just about cut me in half. It was a good experience overall though.

The next day, yesterday, we found a spot and Andy set up a zip-line. It wasn't very successful though and I zip-lined into/through a tree. My legs are all scratched up...oh well. :)

Jake, Maya, and I are all going to be in Fiddler on the Roof this fall. I'm so excited. I'll be playing Chava, the third daughter. I fall in love with a Russian guy who isn't Jewish and it's a big deal.

It's weird to have to make plans to see my friends all the time. It still hasn't really hit me that it's summer and I'm a SENIOR. In less than a year I'll be graduating high school. Geez. I'm still trying to decide if I want to take a year off before college. I've got a pretty good plan for after high school, I just need to figure out the nitty-gritty stuff. It's all kind of scary to think about, so I'm trying to hold off a little until it gets closer to all happening...I've started figuring out some things to take with me when I leave home. I have a box of kitchen stuff. I think I'm mostly worried about being homesick.

I should get my report card in a couple days. I'm hoping for straight A's...these would be the best grades I've ever had in my high school career. :) Kind of exciting. I should get my AP Exam score sometime in July. I hope next year is a good one...I would really love it if the drama would just go away...

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Inquiry

How and why do I do the things I do, I wonder... How did I come to be this way? I'm not invincible by any means but shouldn't things bother me more than they do? Shouldn't I get angry and speak my mind? Shouldn't my filter be a little smaller? Am I too forgiving? It's possible. Am I letting things bounce off of me, or absorbing it, or am I just letting people walk all over me? Should I speak up? I know it matters how I feel but I seem to just push it aside for more "important" things. Is that bad? I act almost as though there's nothing to be done and I'm simply enduring as best I can. Sigh... I don't know...

Maybe it's time I stop taking shit.